This seems to be the perfect time to finally share this with everyone. Thanks Colleen for giving me the kick to do it!!
I have suffered with fibromyalgia since around 2012/2013 (it’s hard to know exactly as diagnosis isn’t easy). Something some of you might have heard of, but others you probably have no clue about it. So I’ll explain to you a bit about it first.. It is a long term condition that causes pain all over the body. As well as this pain some sufferers also have; increased sensitivity to pain, fatigue, muscle stiffness, difficulty sleeping, problems with mental processes (fibro-fog), headaches & IBS. The cause of fibromyalgia isn’t known, but it is thought it can be brought on by a physically or emotionally stressful event or it can be in your genes.
That was quite a lot to take in, I appreciate that, but out of those I suffer with almost all of them. The sensitivity to pain, my most hated one… So if I itch my arm it like really hurts, like someone has just punched me really hard 😩 fatigue is an obvious one… If you know me personally you will know about this one. I used to work 3 jobs at once, even when I cut it down to just the 1 I was working 40 hour weeks & developing this meant I had no choice but to cut down to part time hours… How am I ever going to afford anything?! It so hard & I don’t get any help. I have to hope that I can get through a few hours overtime a week. But if I’m having a bad time, I physically cannot do it.
I do go to the gym, yes. But where you all looove your leg days, this is my hardest one. My legs feel like they’re on fire after doing 2 squats, that is no exaggeration. So if I don’t have much on that week I can push myself a little harder. But if I make it to he gym 2 times a week it’s amazing for me! Plus the restless legs at night is horrendous… Did I just kick Sam in his sleep or did I twitch? 🙄😂
I really hope you’re starting to get a little bit of a vibe of how I feel?!
I work half days & I nap in the afternoon on the day that I work in the morning! That was a weird sentence, but I think it made sense?! 😂 all of the other days I work in the afternoon so I can relax before work.
As for the fibro-fog it’s one of hardest things when you’re at work.. I do tend to say to a lot of people ‘I can’t spit my words out today, sorry’ now you’ll know if you’re talking to me on the phone 😂😂🙈
I can have a flare up at ANY time, but right now I am on the verge. I am emotionally drained with my dog dying, sorting out our first home, working overtime to try to pay for this… I am struggling!
People find it so hard to believe as I ‘look okay’. Well, next time you think that honestly please really look at me… I have bags under my eyes, I have tired looking eyes, I’m not as cheery, I’m grumpy (it’s bad enough being a bloody girl with hormones) I’m snappy, I’ve got bad skin etc etc. I am NOT lazy, I am just not as well as other people.
I don’t treat it with medication, I have tried all of that but I thought instead I would change my lifestyle, which I told you about above. I chose that. I tried support groups etc, but even that wore me out 🙈 I hope this has helped & if anyone wants to ask me anything please feel free to!